Processing the complexities of our son’s happy demeanor
Frequent smiling and laughter are common with Angelman syndrome
Prior to receiving our son Jude’s diagnosis of Angelman syndrome last April, when he was just 16 months old, we beamed with pride that he was a social butterfly who brought joy to everyone he met.
Jude’s cheerful personality has always drawn attention. Passersby, checkout cashiers, and waitresses often say to us, “What a happy boy.” Parents approach us at the swimming pool to tell us, “I’ve never seen a child enjoy swimming as much as yours does.” Strangers, trying to reassure us because we’re first-time parents, say, “Your son is so happy. He must get that from you.”
Jude’s smile is warm and pure. His laugh can be cheeky or full-bellied. It’s not uncommon for my husband, Tom, and me to wake up in the middle of the night to Jude squealing with delight. However, there is much more than meets the eye with Jude’s happiness.
Knowing when to clear my mind
Frequent smiling and laughter, an apparent happy demeanor, and an easily excitable personality are hallmark characteristics of Angelman syndrome. The limited research on smiling and laughter for those with Angelman syndrome indicates that it occurs most frequently during social interactions, particularly when they involve eye contact, and decreases in frequency with age.
We felt naive for failing to recognize that Jude’s happy demeanor was a sign of something much more significant. For a brief period after he was diagnosed, it was challenging to enjoy Jude’s smile as we questioned whether he was happy to be spending time with us, or whether it was because he has Angelman syndrome.
Today, his happiness brings joy and meaning to my life and is all I strive to achieve as a parent. However, at times my thoughts can drift when well-meaning strangers comment on his sunny personality.
Would strangers still find Jude’s smile endearing if they knew that he has Angelman syndrome? As he grows older, will they continue to smile back at him with joy or will they do it out of pity when they learn how challenging it is for him to coordinate his movements or how hard he works at practicing self-feeding and standing? Will Jude be known only as a happy person, or will others see how beautiful his personality is, like how concerned he becomes if he notices that we’re unwell, or how playful he is with his adoring grandparents?
Over time, I realized that negative thoughts about how Jude might be perceived were simply that: thoughts. I remind myself to dismiss them as unhelpful and unproductive and to let them go. But it’s a constant challenge. When I recognize that I’m having a mental spiral, I carve out time for exercise and therapy, as I know that my mind will feel clearer afterward.
I was recently asked what our hopes and dreams were for Jude. Jude is just learning to stand and is nonverbal, so my mind initially leaped to the hope that he might one day walk or communicate his thoughts and needs. Ultimately, though, my response was much simpler: I wish for Jude to always feel happy, safe, and loved.
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Comments
Julie Bridges
My daughter, Becky, who is 43, still has a sunny demeanor! She gets tickled and everyone laughs! She is pure and innocent joy!
Sue Singh
What a beautiful article. It was so inspiring to read about your journey. Being a grandmother to an Angel baby myself, I can totally relate to this. Keep being the good parents you are to Jude. All they want is love and support and I am so glad that he has the whole Angelman family behind him in helping him to achieve his goals now and in the future.
Dian Hamadyk
What a wonderful uplifting article,thank you! Your words are very familiar…my son and his wife have a very beautiful son, our first Grandchild. He will be three this December, and since his diagnosis of AS (6 months old) he has new twin brothers. As devastating the diagnosis was we had to accept it and learn all about this severe disability. He’s doing so good and his beautiful face and smile, laughter fill our hearts we are blessed by this child. He senses and sees things and I believe I have a special connection with him. Interesting from severe Covid I had and the Longhaulers I was left with certain thought processes neurologically changing my thinking is some ways. This has helped me somewhat interact with him. He isn’t verbal, not walking yet but I’m thinking maybe. We watch Nature videos, farm animals, pets feathered and furred. He likes to “taste things, chew on them then study it for any moving parts or noises. Sensory yes, and when I’m watching him he scoots up by me and we read books, watch favorite programs. I do use Nature to connect to him.
Donna Clavette
Loved your Article… I had the same feelings! My angel is 34 years old..and still caring for her! Nicole walks with assistance and even though she doesn’t talk we somehow understand her❤️. Exercise has been my life line . It has allowed me to see my cup half full. Nicole has taught me so much about what is important in life.
Janet Waterman
What a lovely post. My Grandson is living with Angelman’s Syndrome, your positivity, and love will help you through this journey. Max is the light of our lives!
Kunal Bhatia
The happy demeanour is a blessing, regardless of how and when it's demonstrated. The smiling, laughing and big hugs and kisses are an absolute heart-filler. There's a great video on https://www.angelmanuk.org/support/sibling-support/ about how it is for siblings and it talks to peoples actions in public - worth a watch.